its rusted clasp
my underwater thoughts
like the walkie-talkie vents he and I spoke through
at the make-shift drive-in
the plastic cars we drove
once upon a time
and now my arm pulling
grasping through darkness
a distant island.
I often work out problems while I swim, sometimes lines of a poem, but it’s magical when the two merge, like the sea and sky. This poem is a result of how one swim in particular helped put into focus an inner conflict I was having with a sibling and allowed me to embrace the concept of radical acceptance.
The barnacled buoy with the rusted clasp and algae became a metaphor for my brother in a close-up lens through swim goggles. I didn’t know exactly how this poem would come together but white space provided breath to the images bringing clarity to the long-standing tension within the relationship. When the image of the distant island came into view, I realized that was also him; far off and isolated, somewhere I can not reach.
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