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Breath

I sanitized, gowned, tied the billowing fabric around my waist and neck. Then: blue gloves over cuffs, face shield over N95, breath cocooned in...

Once, More Than Once and Slurring

ONCE, MORE THAN ONCE Huffing and puffing, Dr. Frye arrived late in the evening to visit Northridge Hospital. Frey would worry about my tragedy, already learning my brain...

God Don’t Make Junk

That day, I was Windexing my mother’s coffee table. It was probably a Saturday. My mother sat on one end of her hunter-green couch...

Pulling Out Hair in the Time of COVID

A vessel displayed in the Vatican’s Etruscan Museum depicts a Greek goddess, Eos, mourning her son. Memnon was a celebrated leader of the Trojan...

valentines day

++++this day I wasn’t in my body anymore. spineless in the reflection of widespread windows barriers of glass doors closing, needles and beeping and jumpsuits eyes and warm sheets.   I met many...

Leave Me Alone

I return to something like consciousness lying outside the gate in the driveway, partly in the county road. Our big akitas whine and leap...

A Murmuration of Stones

A plot. A boneyard. A potter’s field. A necropolis. A golgatha. I stumbled upon it one steamy day in the first summer of COVID, while...

The Red

The red of the port scar near her heart of the Citgo sign’s glow when I turn to the window of my eyes from watching her in the infusion...

The Fig Tree

Because of the virus, we moved to Sonoma, into a little house we have on the top of a mountain, with its gnarly garden...

Diagnosis

In the beginning there was no name for the soft slippery thing inside me — but it demanded to be held. Like a child that could...

with what letters remain

“...because even the soul is a creature...” - Meister Eckhart you’re here, telling me how a disease survives in saliva & blood & water & it’s swift mutation to rancid wine...

The New York Times Publishes 1,000 Names

I don't know about you, but I'm ready for something to be different. This staying at home, not knowing what's going to happen next, worrying, not...